My Life

CR This year it is a tough year for me . I had spent 2 yrs being single . I don't  want u to suffer what i had suffered last 2 years . i know it is hard to let go the  one we loved one . i willing to help you to solve your problem . No matter how i would,'t make the same mistake that i had done pass few years .  i'm willing to wait for YOU  im ready to lend my shoulders for YOU  im ready to love YOU  IF you meet a better man than me , then u go ahead  i don't want u feel guilty , what i do is my own sincerity  I LOVE YOU FROM MY BOTTOM OF MY HEART  I don't know since when i fall in LOVE with you  i know it is not in the right time to confess  i do this is because i dun want to hide my feeling anymore  Buddy still can couple up , that what i think .  Conclusion i will make a confession again on our next date , i hope this time i can get what i want  Remember , if you dont have feeling towards me , just speak directly face to face to me 

To be honest , i hate lies and i hate people who force people do somethings that they cant decided their own decision . I know that im only juz travelling in Malaysia and that doesn't  means tat my knowledge is lesser than u or HER . Even im not as coward as u (FUCKER) . y u never improved urself ??? sometimes u r damn EGO and selfish and u never wanted to be a loser .  Question : winning in ARGUING is it very importance ? Do u think that im tat stupid ? have u ever ask urself , hu is ur  buddy ? have u ask urself y ur buddy leaving u ? to say SORRY is it so hard ? i never regrets things that i had done  i never afraid of loosing buddy  i never afraid to being rejected by a girl  i never do stupid things such as hurting myself coz of  being rejected by  SIEW LING (151)  i do love her i juz wanted to hear her own heart and her mouth to say tat she does love me i have a lots of trustworthy frz and buddy  i have my own dark history even my own family

                   It seems tat  i'm sad , mood swing just like a weather , everyday i keep on thinking a girl who i LOVE in secondary school ... Every time when i feel i want o let go of and forgets everything tat had happened between me and you ... Now i feel why that time i should back up for u so many times but it seems tat u doesnt realize what i have done for u at secondary school time ... 2day is the 2nd years i break up wif some1    and i still remember  it as clearly as crystal ... tat night i was reli down down ... i feel like wannna drink a lots and drunk lika a crazy teenager ... but u had stopped me ... and i listen to u ... until now i still cant understand  why tat night u kiss me ... i dun knoe weather u knoe tat time i already fall in LOVE wif u ...                    When i think over right now , i should call back the girl who ask for  break up with me ... At here , i dun care u have seen this blog or not ... JESSIE actually at school i cant be so near with you

It had been long time , i did`t updated my blog !!!  I reli wanted to thank MR.TAT and SZE YOU Thanks for both of u for wat u advice to me =) I feel good and happy because i have frz to advice me and i promise myself to change  Juz like wat u say to me sze you  Last night i reli enjoy chatting wif u at fb chat box  I feel juz like secondary school  By the way , until now i still cant let u go although u told me u juz treat me like ur buddy  For wat i knoe nw , i should be happy go lucky tat is enough for me nw   Not every1 is perfect !!!  May be my exception is very high 

Everyday , i will open ur facebook juz too see your face and ur status updates ... i really miss u a lots since the day u come to kl to study and i knoe that im not mature enough to be yours special person ...  i feel that im reli useless ... each time when i see ur profile i feel sad and pain for myself being sooo stupid ... for me i feel that actually u love me , i still remember the day u kiss me untill 2day ...1 girl wount kiss another guys when the girl have boy friend~ i really regret that i didt confess to u that day because i dun want to ruin ur relationship between u and that guy ... the things that i want is ( do u love me ??? )  i juz only want to knoe the answer .. no matter hw long u study in russian i will wait the ans forever and ever .. it is hard for me forget about u ... in secondary school , most of the people dun like me because they say that i like to chase other people gf... that y i dun want to confess to u at that time coz i knoe if u accept me more people will

on 28th of nov ,   i finally confess to the gal that i love and i care ... but at the end it didt work because i knoe that it is still not the right time yet ... anyway i feel much more better at least i no need suffer the pain that i had suffer for 3 years ... Actually the things that i want is ( did u love me ) and all u need juz give ans to me yes or no ... juz that all plus i also knoe tat nw u will not accept any guy be ur couple ~ anyways thanks to my Friend named siew ling ^^ but i hope tat we will not become have distance between us ~ if u have any guys better than me u can go for it juz like u say to me ~ but  i reli hope that ONE day i can hug u ... and i feel shame to myself because i never did smth special to u ~ im SORRY if it is too shock ... and tell u the truth i feel no pain when u give me ans tat we cant ^^   my advice to all people around the world : if u love some be brave to confess it and dun keep it too long inside ur heart !!!